Talk about anything that's on your mind

[Tazio]

This sort of reminds me of an event in my life that happened 39 years ago.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUPrVHunxN0

[gadjo_dilo]

I hardly slept these days so I got to read your post before you edited it. It's easy to understand why you can't forget that.

[airshifter]

Having been, in the not so distant past, in a place where I constantly lacked sleep, had huge stresses in my life, uncertainty about many things, financial concerns, loss of a family member, and utter chaos within my mind due to not understanding some PTSD issues.... I can completely relate to the turmoil Gadjo_dilo is dealing with. And personally I think it's very brave to put it out there and admit it's a period of life that isn't so great, or even close to great. For me that was one of my major struggles, and other than my immediate family nobody really knew about it. That is one fault I've found with myself during that period, and I think many men share that fault in not wanting to show any weakness. But we all have weaknesses of various types at times, so why deny your reality?

So I've now taken an attitude that when people put such things out there, there is probably a reason. Maybe it's one we don't or can't understand, but that certainly doesn't make it wrong. We all deal with things in different ways, but if it works that is all that matters.

I'm very sorry if you want to die Gadjo_dilo. Thank you for being human and letting us know how you really feel, and thank you even more for assuring us you couldn't hurt yourself.

I've met quite a number of people with such feelings, mostly through groups I went to in my recovery. And what I hope for you is that you see some light and reach out to it, wherever it is, and that your want to die diminishes until it goes away completely. Find your reasons for wanting to live, and fight for them. There are many if you look, but at times it's hard to see them when overcome by the negative things. Just remember though, the positives all still exist. If there is any way at all I can help you do that, please reach out and let me know.




What's on my mind? Well I got up early to deal with some work stuff involving a move up in my company and my desires on that move. But I found the above to be a higher priority. My past has shown me that when I fail to be understanding of other people, I'm going down a path I don't care for, and becoming a person I don't want to be.

[gadjo_dilo]

I feel better now. Never thought I could be so strong.....
Don't know where it comes from. Because at the end of the day I'm a stubborn macedonian or because I simply have no choice?
Let's stop talking about this episode. Don't want to upset anybody. Ignore it.....
Promise to talk only about nice things.
So have you guys finished the decorations for Christmas?

[Jag_Warrior]

This is probably the worst time of the year to have to deal with anything that's not going quite right in your life. With all of the (fake) happiness and people dancing around at Christmas time, it's a real wonder that more people don't go off the deep end.

But for any and all who are feeling stressed, take a second to breathe deeply. And though it may sound like a cliche, do remember that there are many who wish they had the problems you have instead of the ones they have.

Anyway, what's on my mind is that I hope to have one more day that I can make better than today was. Today wasn't horrible, but I think we can improve on it with some effort.

[Tazio]

This is probably the worst time of the year to have to deal with anything that's not going quite right in your life. With all of the (fake) happiness and people dancing around at Christmas time, it's a real wonder that more people don't go off the deep end.

But for any and all who are feeling stressed, take a second to breathe deeply. And though it may sound like a cliche, do remember that there are many who wish they had the problems you have instead of the ones they have.

Anyway, what's on my mind is that I hope to have one more day that I can make better than today was. Today wasn't horrible, but I think we can improve on it with some effort.

"This life, which had been the tomb of his virtue and of his honour, is but a walking shadow; a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is heard no more: it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."

Sorry!

[gadjo_dilo]

Sounds like the bard of Avon.......
( to set the record straight I'm not speaking of henners )

[airshifter]

But for any and all who are feeling stressed, take a second to breathe deeply. And though it may sound like a cliche, do remember that there are many who wish they had the problems you have instead of the ones they have.

After a very brief visit into the world that many with PTSD live with daily, I can 100% guarantee that there are many living in a world where they would welcome most of our problems. That very brief period has inspired me to get more involved helping those dealing with it, to the extent of considering that I must leave sufficient free time in my new job move to be able to help.

I'll spend some time in the next week checking in on guys I've met that struggle daily to keep some sanity in their lives. They deserve it, and I've reached a point where I feel I have a personal obligation to help.

[gadjo_dilo]

I'll spend some time in the next week checking in on guys I've met that struggle daily to keep some sanity in their lives. They deserve it, and I've reached a point where I feel I have a personal obligation to help.

I think that's great. Esp. cos it's on Christmas week.
Airshifter, you really have a big heart.....I'm happy you're my friend.

[airshifter]

I think that's great. Esp. cos it's on Christmas week.
Airshifter, you really have a big heart.....I'm happy you're my friend.

I regret not understanding earlier in my life how much I enjoy helping people when I can. Though I always somewhat enjoyed charity work and such things, I never got as personally involved until later in my life.

And I was fortunate enough to go through some personal struggles that gave me some first hand insight to things I didn't and still don't quite fully understand. But that exposure, along with meeting people that have themselves struggled though much tougher things, some of them horrific events for any human to endure, have made me understand we all have something to give back.

Some of these people I have met are now employed in a health care system that is attempting new ways to reach out to those in need, and these men and women are very inspiring. Many of the veterans also come back to help and volunteer as they learn to cope, and the stories of some of those people brings me to tears.... literally. It is a group of people I have enormous respect for.

So please don't think that I have spent my life as some selfless person who woke up every day wanting to help others, as that is not the case. I've simply been exposed to people that at some point did become such people, and they have inspired me to make changes to what priorities I have in life. And I let them know in no uncertain terms that if I someday become the person they already are, I will consider that quite an accomplishment.

But I'm glad you're my friend too. And I know that you have a lot on your plate at the moment. But just remember you can still give another person hope that one day they will have a plate to pile problems on. Some of them have lost hope that it will ever happen, and something that simple can be very rewarding.