This sort of reminds me of an event in my life that happened 39 years ago. :kiss:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUPrVHunxN0
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This sort of reminds me of an event in my life that happened 39 years ago. :kiss:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUPrVHunxN0
I hardly slept these days so I got to read your post before you edited it. It's easy to understand why you can't forget that.
Having been, in the not so distant past, in a place where I constantly lacked sleep, had huge stresses in my life, uncertainty about many things, financial concerns, loss of a family member, and utter chaos within my mind due to not understanding some PTSD issues.... I can completely relate to the turmoil Gadjo_dilo is dealing with. And personally I think it's very brave to put it out there and admit it's a period of life that isn't so great, or even close to great. For me that was one of my major struggles, and other than my immediate family nobody really knew about it. That is one fault I've found with myself during that period, and I think many men share that fault in not wanting to show any weakness. But we all have weaknesses of various types at times, so why deny your reality?
So I've now taken an attitude that when people put such things out there, there is probably a reason. Maybe it's one we don't or can't understand, but that certainly doesn't make it wrong. We all deal with things in different ways, but if it works that is all that matters.
I'm very sorry if you want to die Gadjo_dilo. Thank you for being human and letting us know how you really feel, and thank you even more for assuring us you couldn't hurt yourself.
I've met quite a number of people with such feelings, mostly through groups I went to in my recovery. And what I hope for you is that you see some light and reach out to it, wherever it is, and that your want to die diminishes until it goes away completely. Find your reasons for wanting to live, and fight for them. There are many if you look, but at times it's hard to see them when overcome by the negative things. Just remember though, the positives all still exist. If there is any way at all I can help you do that, please reach out and let me know.
What's on my mind? Well I got up early to deal with some work stuff involving a move up in my company and my desires on that move. But I found the above to be a higher priority. My past has shown me that when I fail to be understanding of other people, I'm going down a path I don't care for, and becoming a person I don't want to be.
I feel better now. Never thought I could be so strong.....
Don't know where it comes from. Because at the end of the day I'm a stubborn macedonian or because I simply have no choice?
Let's stop talking about this episode. Don't want to upset anybody. Ignore it.....
Promise to talk only about nice things.
So have you guys finished the decorations for Christmas?
This is probably the worst time of the year to have to deal with anything that's not going quite right in your life. With all of the (fake) happiness and people dancing around at Christmas time, it's a real wonder that more people don't go off the deep end.
But for any and all who are feeling stressed, take a second to breathe deeply. And though it may sound like a cliche, do remember that there are many who wish they had the problems you have instead of the ones they have.
Anyway, what's on my mind is that I hope to have one more day that I can make better than today was. Today wasn't horrible, but I think we can improve on it with some effort. :)
"This life, which had been the tomb of his virtue and of his honour, is but a walking shadow; a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is heard no more: it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."Quote:
Originally Posted by Jag_Warrior
Sorry! ;( :angel:
Sounds like the bard of Avon.......:confused:
( to set the record straight I'm not speaking of henners :devil: )
After a very brief visit into the world that many with PTSD live with daily, I can 100% guarantee that there are many living in a world where they would welcome most of our problems. That very brief period has inspired me to get more involved helping those dealing with it, to the extent of considering that I must leave sufficient free time in my new job move to be able to help.Quote:
Originally Posted by Jag_Warrior
I'll spend some time in the next week checking in on guys I've met that struggle daily to keep some sanity in their lives. They deserve it, and I've reached a point where I feel I have a personal obligation to help.
I think that's great. Esp. cos it's on Christmas week.Quote:
Originally Posted by airshifter
Airshifter, you really have a big heart.....I'm happy you're my friend.
I regret not understanding earlier in my life how much I enjoy helping people when I can. Though I always somewhat enjoyed charity work and such things, I never got as personally involved until later in my life.Quote:
Originally Posted by gadjo_dilo
And I was fortunate enough to go through some personal struggles that gave me some first hand insight to things I didn't and still don't quite fully understand. But that exposure, along with meeting people that have themselves struggled though much tougher things, some of them horrific events for any human to endure, have made me understand we all have something to give back.
Some of these people I have met are now employed in a health care system that is attempting new ways to reach out to those in need, and these men and women are very inspiring. Many of the veterans also come back to help and volunteer as they learn to cope, and the stories of some of those people brings me to tears.... literally. It is a group of people I have enormous respect for.
So please don't think that I have spent my life as some selfless person who woke up every day wanting to help others, as that is not the case. I've simply been exposed to people that at some point did become such people, and they have inspired me to make changes to what priorities I have in life. And I let them know in no uncertain terms that if I someday become the person they already are, I will consider that quite an accomplishment.
But I'm glad you're my friend too. And I know that you have a lot on your plate at the moment. But just remember you can still give another person hope that one day they will have a plate to pile problems on. Some of them have lost hope that it will ever happen, and something that simple can be very rewarding.
To that I need to add that in my part of the world in December it's humid, cold and dark. The days are short and the nights are long. To add insult to injury, there is no snow despite winter time. It makes things yet darker and less festive.Quote:
Originally Posted by Jag_Warrior
Just remembered that tonight's the longest night of the year. It's the winter solstice and the right time to do some witchcraft......Quote:
Originally Posted by Rudy Tamasz
Charity and volunteering are strange concepts in this country. Nobody will help you for free even if the helping hand costs nothing. Well, there are exceptions but only a few. My mother always helped old ladies in the neighbourhood with shopping or simply staying with them for a cofee and never thought to ask something for that. If she went to buy a bread it wasn't a big deal to buy one more for a neighbour who couldn't leave the house. Matter of fact in our small aromanian community we developed a solidarity that always looked strange to romanians. It was a cultural shock for me when i started to work and had to cope with romanian society. The mentality of "I don't care what I have to do as long as money comes" or " I won't tell you how to do this cos I don't offer counselling for free" was strange to me.Quote:
Originally Posted by airshifter
Now I'm afraid that after so many years of trying to integrate myself in their community I started to become one of them. I have become a heart of stone that can't be touched by normal feelings. I use to blame it on all the hypocrisy and lies that surround me. But what if I'm wrong?
I think today is officially the last day of the extended Saturnalia celebrations as well. Time to party it up! :)Quote:
Originally Posted by gadjo_dilo
I think any person is somewhat influenced by the society that surrounds them. But the things you express here are often things that show you are touched by normal human feelings. Just because you might live in a place that more often decides to hide or deny them, doesn't mean it has removed your inner feelings. And from the sound of things you were influenced by your mother to help others, which is probably one of the reasons you are so giving with her.Quote:
Originally Posted by gadjo_dilo
And really to some extent we also have to remember that just because "society" in our world thinks things should be a certain way, doesn't mean that society is right. Over time social influences change, and the change often starts with those not doing what is considered normal at that time.
It's rainy and miserable outside. I wish I didn't have to work today. But I will, maybe just a later than usual start to get out and about.
And I have to make some kind of vehicle decision soon. My daughter will be driving soon and I need to get something else to drive to work. But I'm all over the map about what to get. Indecision is a terrible thing.
I know. I wanted a new watch for Christmas and I decided to get an expensive one ( well, expensive according to the standards of a country where the average wage is about 400 euros :laugh: ). I went to some shops and I found myself bewildered by the diversity of models and colors. I wanted a golden-rose one but then I thought I'd like also a golden or a silver one. Finally I bought nothing and I'm sure it will take months to decide. :pQuote:
Originally Posted by airshifter
A few days ago while walking outside of town (not for fun, mind you) under the falling snow rain, I saw a huge leaf worm on the pavement crawling somewhere. I was like, a worm, alive, in December with nothing green in sight?! I am ashamed to say I found some comfort in the fact that somebody was in a clearly worse position than me. I wished the poor worm good luck and went on.
Economy is going down the toilet, thanks to the Saudis.
I now stand a chance of losing my job in the new year :(
Merry fkcing Christmas.
I just saw this by chance haha! I will be spending a bit of time near the Bard this Xmas with the family. My little girl is not quite old enough to understand what it is all about yet but she is excited already by the sight of wrapping paper.Quote:
Originally Posted by gadjo_dilo
I hope you are over some of your troubles Gadjo and are in a happier place. Christmas can be a tough time of year for many and there are way too many sad stories doing the rounds at the moment. A friend of mine lost his Dad the week before last after his parents had an argument. His dad stormed out and hanged himself in the garage. Everybody is devastated. He had some hidden financial trouble. Then a few days ago I found out a guy I knew from school split up with his girlfriend of 8 years and topped himself soon after. He made a post on Facebook a few hours before about a new start and exciting times ahead. I don't think it matters where people share their troubles as long as they do, because a problem shared is a problem halved. Even if you are sharing things with people you don't know, it can be a relief in itself. Anyway, enough of the sad stuff.
Merry Christmas everybody and stay safe and enjoy. :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0s3EznU26k
Happy Holidays :)
And the same to you my friend. May eight tiny reindeer pull your scooter through the holidays and deliver lots of good things.Quote:
Originally Posted by Tazio
Yaaaaaaaaaaaay. Last day of work for me before Christmas.
Phew, then almost 2 weeks off. :)
Off to Spain to see the family for Christmas in a few hours ("vuelve, a casa vueeelve..."). :cool:
For the first time in a long long time, probably indeed since I've had a work laptop, I'm leaving it at home. :bandit:
... after all, I can still receive emails on my work mobile ;) :dozey:
tyring stuff eh?
feliz navidad donks!
Thanks Tormenta :wave:
... Eastenders on Tv... I love Christmas :andrea: :p
http://youtu.be/BIsfablMNZU
Merry Christmas friends and unfriends!
:wave:
Mmmmmm I do love my mummy's mince pies at Christmas :facelick: :burp: :bandit:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMRBYpbAHpk
:D
Merry Christmas Guys and Gals.
A special mention to the guys who don't celebrate Christmas as well.
Especially in my Case Storm. :)
Mmmmmm I do love my mum-in-law's roast
baby lamb :facelick: :burp: :bandit:
That's Easter dish. :confused:Quote:
Originally Posted by donKey jote
Also a Christmas dish here :andrea:
Felices Pascuas! ;) :p :D
Jingle tits goes viral :dozey:
To all my dear friends - Happy Christmas, and to those who don't celebrate Christmas - Hi how are ya?
It's just after 1 pm here in NZ. The turkey is about 15 minutes away from perfection, the roast spuds and veg are almost ready, house smells great. The main downer is the fact that it is 27 degrees centigrade out side and about 10 hotter in my kitchen.
cheers Steve, I forgot to wish you guys earlier but you know my best wishes are always with you !Quote:
Originally Posted by steveaki13
The missus made a lovely orange+almond cake and we had a fantastic prawns biryani for dinner (takeaway!) with my own version of chilli & honey chicken :facelick:
Hope all of you had a great day and will have even better days further ahead :beer:
Mmmmm my mummy's steak & kidney pie :facelick: :burp: :bandit:
Mmmmm, porkies, porkies, porkies.....http://tapatalk.imageshack.com/v2/14...210cc3f5f8.jpg
:eek: :cheese: :burnout:
Yeah so I'm a little brassed off that my Brutale is in the shop with only 800 miles on it. I noticed it starting to have to crank over for longer and longer durations of time when I cold started (cold in San Diego is 50° F) it about 100 miles ago, and it got continually more acute. The maintenance bloke at the dealership where I bought it said it was almost assuredly the starter sprag which is a starter clutch mechanism, and it is actually rather common on this model and a recall is forthcoming. It runs fantastic and starts fine even after sitting for most of the day, but in the morning I have to run the starter for a lot longer than I should. In the interest of not overworking other related parts it was an easy decision to address the issue. I really can't find anything on the internet about this systemic problem with MV Agusta, however it is an issue easily searchable on the Triumph 675 Street Triple which is quite similar, and several others. :angryfire
Some totally wonderful things have happened to me this year. And (as life goes), there have been some real challenges too. Not bragging, but I've been through enough at this stage that it's fairly hard for anything to really throw me off course. But on Christmas Eve, a (younger) girl who I thought had a crush on me began sending me texts and it led to her finally admitting that she wanted to set me up with... with... her mother.
It seems like just yesterday that I was always one of the younger guys in the room and an "older woman" to me was no more than 30. So could someone please tell me how in the world that a "young fellow" like me could be the victim of a blind date set-up by someone's daughter???!!! I know the woman is very book smart (by her profession). The daughter is quite the cutie, so maybe she got it from her Mommy (I hope). But I don't know what she looks like. I don't even know how old she is. But the fact that I now know that these two have been silently stalking me (from afar) for months kind of creeps me out. I knew there was something odd going on, but I thought it was the girl who had a crush. Now I find out that she's married and it's Mommy! WTF?!
And what is bothering me the most is that something so minor has thrown me so far off my game. I had an "out", but for whatever reason, I agreed to go out with this woman. It'll go OK or it won't. But what the hell is wrong with me that I've let this bother me?! Yeah, I know what's wrong. I now have to realize and accept that I'm not the young guy in the room anymore. Oh, well. Better to get older than have to go with the alternative... I suppose.